Jessica Fanmeet... I WISHED IT WAS REAL

So apparently I dreamt on Jessica on 15 May 2015 (I know bc I typed this post that morning on my phone's notes and the dates still there HAHA) So once again recording down my fav memories with soshi in my dreams so that when I feel sad I can think back and pretend it's real

I went for Jessica fan meet together with Mel (??? she's not even a fan LOL) then cos we had to queue for v long, Mel half way suddenly gone missing for awhile. Then I realized that she went somewhere else to play some games but I think she played too much, missed the time then the door for fanmeet locked liao LOL. So when Jessica came, she wanted to take polaroids with us in pairs. So I had to pair up with this xmm HAHA then she told Jessica to write her chinese name and sign beside it on a paper. Then Jessica said "wa very long never write chinese very difficult" then somehow I think she spoke hokkien?!?!? LOLOL

Afterwards I also told Jessica that I want her to write my name too then she look at the list of names she had to write, then I said "English should be fine right??" cos aft all she is made in USA yo. Then she's like... "Actually English or Chinese also difficult leh HAHAHAHA" .............

then kns we havent take polaroid + she havent sign for me then my alarm rang....

I HATE MY LIFE.

1 2 5.

On this day, somehow I got reminded of how we were like in the past.
Can't believe we're friends for 4 years already hahaha.
But I also can't believe how things can change so much in the span of the last 1 year.
Sigh.

You were my best friend.
(maybe just on my part but yeah you're really pretty much like one already)

But now I feel like we're just... awkward friends trying to stay in contact but yeah you and I know there is a distance between us. It doesn't help that I'm listening to "I'll Remember You - No Secrets" right now because the lyrics is so apt.

It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always

To be honest, I just really miss you, friend.
Or rather, I miss us.
I miss how close we used to be.
I miss how I can always look up to you when I have any problems
I miss how we can talk everyday and not get bored of each other
I miss how I used to be able to tell you everything under the sun - be it something nonsensical or just something I feel like sharing with you.

You once said you'll be there to catch me when I fall, but now I wonder where were you.... :'(

一眼瞬間

只要看你一眼　一瞬間　哪怕是最後畫面
我的世界　因為愛過而完美　誰都不該離太遠

I kinda miss blogging on blogger.
HAHAHAHA. 

This is a really random post but not like anyone reads this space anyway.

dreams

whenever i dreamt of something related to soshi i'd like to record it down as part of my memory so that i can look back and reminisce again HAHAHA.

when was the last time i had such an awesome dream about soshi???
hahaha this time round its taeny again! for some reason i think i'm almost ALWAYS dreaming of tiff and taeyeon will most of the time be there as well.

it so happened that i saw tiffany and taeyeon in the rehearsal area/resting room and then idk why im v near tiffany actually.... i think im a staff or smtg idk i may be helping out LOL. then i went to sit beside tiff on a bench, then she talked to me abit and she actually initiated for a selca omggggg. i just idgsajdhasjkdhsaj when she suggest ok. so i was so happy that i cant press the camera button on my phone properly to pass it to someone to help us take a picture but tiff was alr in the pose and shes like leaning towards me, her head touching mine. OMG SO CLOSE OK I CAN TOTALLY FEEL IT ALTHO ITS JUST A DREAM!!!!!!! then she was smiling like n___n and i was jus like :D :D :D :D :D . but someone i think my phone hung... so tiff gave her phone to help us take a pic instead! afterwards i thanked her ofc!!! then i wrote some handwritten msg to her to thank her and she replied... ;A;

idky there is this part we talked about mothers in my dream then she actually replied (wrote to) me in chinese "shi jie shang de ma ma shi zui hao de, bu yao dong de shi qu le cai zhen xi" then i just o____o omg chinese HAHAHAH. aftwards taeny were waiting for the rehearsal to start so tiff saw me and asked me over.I WAS SO HAPPY. then i talked to them, and taeyeon asked for a photo tgt. THEN SHE USE THE INSTAGRAM APP YOU KNOW OMGZ IM GONNA BE ON HER INSTA. THEN WE TOOK 2 PICTURES AND COLLAGED AND SHE PUT ON HER INSTAGRAM. FJDKHFHFJKSDHFJSDHFKJSDHFJKSD. afterwards we talked for awhile and i asked them if alw have to wait so long for rehearsal to start and they say ya its v boring LOL. tiff left us for awhile so its jus left w me and taeyeon talking HAHA. oh ya then i rmb that me and tiff's selca is in her phone and she said she would kakao me when i asked LOL.

AHHHHHHHH such a goood good dream. i snoozed for another 45mins for this. i really really like tiff in my dream :( hahaha and taeyeon's instagram kekekeke 

dear, my friend.

do you know, my fear of losing you?

it seems like things had changed over time. its not like i wanna keep harping on it, but i'm scared, im really really scared. after all, you've made many new good friends, gotten even closer to many other people. why am i fearing that things will get more and more awkward between us :(

for one, im afraid that we will lose touch and stop talking/having common topics between us anymore. things are looking towards that direction and i really...hate it. i hate it when we dont have mutual topics to talk about. i hate it when im unable to start a new topic with you w/o sounding awkward in my text. i hate it when i had to wait for your replies, as well. it makes me think alot, it really does. i miss those times when replies were really quick and all, hahaha.

this part might be me thinking too much, but why do i feel like you feel uneasy/weird having to meet me 1 on 1. if not, when we're tgt you're alw using your phone, like we rlly have nth to talk abt :(  ahhh maybe its just me feeling too sensitive (i hope its the case)

sometimes, i really don't know.

Sorry

I don't know how to feel.
I'm sorry.
Maybe it's my fault.
Perhaps we belong to a different world.

I'm sorry.

あなたの右肩

右肩 - 前田敦子

I still remember, even now…
The summer I fell in love…
Sunlight shone upon the blue passion flowers
Blooming wildly along the path



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