BORN TO BEAT.

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fansign!!!! its my first kpop fansign and im RLLY excited further more it’s the group that I’m so interested in recently HAHAHA. MY CREYSSSSS THEY WERE SO HANDSOME OK OMG. the organizers sucks tho lol so many problems ~____~ and uh the lighting sucks lol.

Eunkwang’s really friendly!!! I just annyeonghaseyo him and he annyeonghaseyo back VERY FRIENDLY-LY LOL. <3 LEADERRR. he said stg aft tt but I cant catch him.. hahaha aft that was minhyuk LMAO I told him “jalsaengkesseoyeo!” and he’s like ahh kamsahamnida with a smile on his face. He too, said stg aft tt but idk what he said LULZ. after that was changsub, I told him he’s cute but he just smile smile LOL guess he’s shy. AFTER THAT WAS HYUNSIK LMAO I TOLD HIM “shuai ge, ming tian jian!” and he’s like *nods* then eyesmile dasudhasudgadahsjdksahdas OTKKKK. HAHAHA after that was peniel but I never got to talk to him?!?!?! he’s so busy signing ahahah after that was ilhoon! he’s shy too he also just smile smile >_< LOL sungjae I think also smile smile I cant rmb T_T

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Music Matters Live! LIGHTING ROCKS I GOT A LOT MORE CLEAR PICS WAHAHAHHA. omg they performed many many songs and ;~~~; WHEN DURING INTRO, EVERYONE INTROED IN ENGLISH BUT HYUNSIK INTRODUCED IN CHINESE. I literally squealed when I hear him speaking chinese, to the extend that the girl infront of me turned back to look at me HAHAHAHA sorry >_< apparently I didn’t get any clear shots of peniel….. WHY WE SO NO FATE hahaha. a lot clear shots of hyunsik lmao I think my cam <3 him. LOL. they had dance break too AND THEY PERFORMED IRRESISTIBLE LIPS FOR THE FIRST TIMEEEEE. HAHAHAH omg that song was so awesome ok! heh then after that me and mirza stayed to wait for tiger jk and yoon mirae but they’re like the last few~ luckily aft btob a lot xmms went off lolol. then jkyun’s stage LOL he’s pretty entertaining HAHAHA. aft that was Dj-ing iirc and my ears hurt like hell T-T its like i m almost directly beside the bigbig speaker…… I suffered from noise induced deafness tht night lol. then MIB stage omg this kiseok guy VERY CUTE OMG LIKE XOXOXO HAHAHAHAHA. aft tt was blizzy(?) tigerjk & yoonmirae’s stage omg they literally rocked the night. a lot of koreans were there too and quite afew drunk ones infront/beside/behind me lolol ~_____~ . the whole thing ended at like what 11.15pm?!?! LOL it was so tiring pls like even more tiring than soshi con bc soshi con only stand arnd 3hr? this one we stood for 4hrs…. ORZ. went home and gotten myself a slurpee at 1am LULZ. ^_^ happy day hehehe,

In conclusion I think I rlly like btob HAHAHAHA. I miss them already!!!! but its ok, 15 days to seoul hehehe I think they might be promoting irresistible lips! hopefully… hahah and they period we’re gg I think there’s bigbang 2ne1 wondergirls rainbow infinite b1a4??? altho tts' one ended alr… buts its ok >_< LIFE’S STILL GOOD. HOPEFULLY I CAN SEE THE GIRLS SOMEHOW…. T______T. really want to see them up close :/

okay I’ll update this space again! 2 days to mst OH GOD

just me.

Just feel like sorting out some feelings today.

To be honest I’m kinda amazed that you both are still keeping in contact  and quite close to each other I suppose? Hahaha. Sigh I didn’t know you have such an impression on me until I saw that tweet. lol despite not being very close to you, those words felt like a strong blow? idk what had I done exactly to make you feel that way lol well I guess just a little misunderstanding could have change your overall impression of me immediately even tho I havent even rlly met you irl lol. I realise I couldn’t tell her how I felt about this becuz you both are close and I dnw to be the one that makes your r/s bitter.
 
Well, if you find it really a disgrace to be mentioning me directly (or rather, let someone else saw you talking to me) then I guess I don’t have to continue keeping you in my life, do I? You’re so materialistic lol idk but I felt that you’re a different person now. Lol you’re definitely not one of those impt impt person in my life but I still don’t mind keeping you as a friend. But currently what I’m feeling is that you DO NOT want me in your life anymore.. then I guess, so be it.

Actually I really think I’m someone who is very easy to read lol. its like when im sad its very obvious im sad lol ~___~ I suck at controlling emotions I guess hahaha.

k I’m done saying what I wanted to say on twtr but couldn’t. Blogging is still one of the best option to voice out your opinion in a rather confined place

new phrase of life.

Tertiary. No more wearing of school uniforms, hahaha. Now i feel like a senior. Maybe we're all growing too quickly... Hmm. Now a total new environment and friends. Hopefully i'll pull thru the coming 3 years.. becuz i alr forsee ~__~ issues now tho its only the first day of school lol.

well i guess, i still need some time to adapt.

MEANWHILE, I AM LESS THAN 2 MONTHS AWAY FROM KOREA :D
yippeeeeeeeeeeee

17th

Finally, im 17. Figured i should do a small blog post. Hahaha. 

In 1 year, i’ve drifted from some people, gotten even closer with some people, knew some new people. Many things happened, changes as well. I learnt to be more independent. Learnt to study. okay actually idk what to type anymore lol … hahaha. Shall be random then. Found out that only some guys when i talk to them i wont feel awkward. Thank you for being in my life. People from the SONE fandom, gotten really close to a few of them and I really Thank God for that. Life is more interesting with their existence in my life. They know who they are.

As i am going to embark on another new level of life, i hope that things would be better. Let this be an awesome year ahead. I look forward to more outings, fun joy and laughter in my life. Love you all :)

missed how things were in the past, but they are in the past.

2011 – Girls Generation

111129 – MAMA red carpet
my first exposure to the girls. i swear they all looked so gorgeous and elegant :)

111209 – SNSD concert day 1
went there super early with elisha and friend… just hang arnd there with everyone :D till night……
i sit having sitting on the 1st day. everything went so well except my ears. i guess i am not accustomed to loud music … so my ears went crazy and i hear the girls singing in higher pitch than and not their original voice lmao i thought its the sound system that has smth wrong but in the end i found out its just me :( nevertheless, the girls were really cute and all >< seobb gave me a heart when i gave her one omg saranghae <3333 hahahaha other than that, the boys fanchant is relaly daebak like when we ‘GG’ the whole stadium just echoed omg how awesome is that :D then… at the end i ran forward to say goodbye to the girls lmao so fangirl ok LOL ide myself but omg quite close up :D :D hahahaha!! after that i went to meet samsam, cheryl and devon. go makan supper then me and devon went over sam’s place to stayover hahaha managed to sleep only 2 hrs tho… didnt sleep for the night before –_-

111210 – SNSD concert day 2
reached there.. slept for awhile. later did i know i got tanner lol. tbh for the whole morning i felt like a burden lol. ok then err had subway for lunch… then go back play cards etc to pass time :) got really bored and decided to do a fany “board” (made of cheap paper lmao) saying smth like “ tippani !! flying kiss please! TODAY IS MY DAY. (my name is tiffany too! ) “ lol :/ hahaha yeah then time to stand up and we went into the concert!! omg 1st row ahhhh thanks sam for letting me stand infront omg hahaha. was standing beside roy! then slowly concert started and this time i’ve became smarter. so i took tissue papers and stuff it into one of my ears becos they aint working properly again and i rlly wanna experience them in their real voices >( hahaha. omg starting jiu alot fan services liao!! sunny was right infront of us from the start. then fanservices from yoonggggg. omg i can say i basically got fanservice from like MOST OF THE GIRLS T_T or rather. ALL!!!! they are so awesome ok i swear hyoyeon is the fanservice queen!!!!! hahahaha ok then during my child fany saw my paper!! she tries to read it from a far distance with the small words…. and her serious look omg /dies all over again/ hahaha then she saw the flying kiss part and gave me a flying kiss, then an eyesmile and she turned. OMG I SWEAR THAT MOMENT WAS DAMN PRECIOUS I ALMOST DIED I SCREAMED FOR LIKE 1-2MINS CONTINUOUSLY OKKKKK CRYING THATS LIKE THE BEST LIKE OMG <333 I LOVE YOU TIFFANY HWANG SARANGHAEYO MANHI MANHI!!!! ok actually then i think SG sones fanchant not bad leh like quite daebak omg for the boys we just literally sang the whole the boys with them along with the fanchants lor. i can only say the whole night is damn high la !!!!! then then during himnae seohyun was infront of me! then when it reaches ‘ yes its youuuuuuuu’ part, she was right infront of me. so i decided to point at her during tt time and GUESS WHAT. SHE DID IT TO ME TOO OMG. AND HER KIND IS LIKE SHE FOCUS ON 1 PERSON AND WILL NEVER LOOK ELSE WHR SO SHE JUST LITERALLY SAY YES ITS YOU TO ME OMG I ALMOST DIED OK LIKE SRSLY I CANT BREATHE YO. ok during naengmyun taeng came infront of us and asked us sing naengmyun x3  tooo ~~~ haha she gave a thumbs up aft we did so omg so cuteeeee. im only quite sad yuri didnt rlly give much fanserv but its rlly good to see her dorky and playful side too! HAHAHA OMG SO MANY PAIRINGS OK…I LOVE THEM ALLLLLLL. got fan event for complete and forever too! ;~; idek how to continue so i’ll end off here ok!~~~

 

“girls generation have the best fans in the world” – Sooyoung
”we love sones more than chilli crab!” – Tiffany
”who’s here yesterday!” “ me me me!” Tiffany, Taeyeon
”singapore put it back onnnnnnnnnn” – Genie
” tell me singapore it it it it it it it ahhhhh “ – Jessica

AND MANY MANY MORE AND I SWEAR THEIR ENGLISH IS IMPROVE TREMENDULOUSLY OK HAHAHAHA LOVES!!! I LOVE THIS 9 GIRLS SO MUCH AND SO BADLY I SWEAR. concert withdrawal is the worst…. but i’ve had fun during those 3 days, despite the lack of sleep and everything :D :D :D didnt go home aft the 2nd night concert too.. went to had popeyes then camp at macs at airport cos… its too late and there is no more train hahaha :/

Right now its Girls Generation, From now on its Girls Generation, Forever its Girls Generation! <3

111114 – sweet dreams

Got this super nice dream bout snsd :D :D :D

k it first started off with me and my friend at the backstage of mubank.. idek why ok. then i saw fany there. she was alone cos she’s sick then cant perform or smth. i went up to talk to her… then she’s super friendly omg! she talked to me!!! then we kept talking then we pack our bags tgt o_o …… whatever but :D  she damn cute ok. then she intro me and my friend to act for some show la. ok then go home le my back leave at the mubank backstage in some locker beside fany’s ^_^

2nd day we went for mucore or smth. somehow Taeng is in the backstage this time.. she is super cute too hahaha. thn went to talk to her again.. we sat on the floor talking together~ cute cute cute. tho got abit language barrier but idk how but somehow i know what shes talking LOL. then i asked for her signature! :D then she signed and wrote one chunk in english idek how she did that. but i forget the content lol. ok so ya liddat then i saw fany again HAHAHA :)

kk 3rd day we get up early go the place to film.. my bag still at the mubank place thn somehow those place link de so we end up gg to the mubank bakstage(?) hahahah. then that day snsd will go inki (mubank stage) to perform.. k then finish filming alr we go slack at the backstage again. then saw taeng tiffany still unwell :( then tiffany said yuri isnt well too. then somehow me and my friend ended up gg on the stage to perform tgt with snsd and we got the 1st! then i rush to backstage and showed yuri the trophy. Im like “ yuri!! see~ “ then shes like, REPLY ME IN CHINESE YOU KNOW like, “ 你幫我唱啊 “ then she giggled. OMG I SWEAR SHE IS SO CUTE. but she left me after awhile.Sooyoung is so TALL! I stood beside her. HAHAHA then after that they have to go alr. but they left their hoodies on a sofa so prolly they’ll be coming back tmr or smth. then i went to take my bag with fany then we chatted awhile again

then the next day got a lady disappointed with me and my friend being in the acting for some show but the producer wants us LMAO HAHAHA. okok then idk how the blog of idek what got this tagboard. then i went to write smth. then tiffany replied!!! her name is “powerpuff” LOL. :/ :/ :/ ahhh but i didnt get her signature! but i think i spent most time with her in this dream lol omo so cute :D

fany look smth like this.. the clothes i forget but the hair and face ;~; got one day i think she got her hair down. then yuri wore very casual clothes!!!!!! likes a tshirt and jeans or smth omg loves :D HAHAHA. Taeng i think wore a hoodie and shorts :)) HEHEHE

LOVING THIS DREAM SO MUCH THAT I DONT FEEL LIKE WAKING UP

我搞不懂我們到底怎麽了

This seemed like some, never ending war.
I hate this kind of feeling that I am feeling right now.

Why must you be feeling this way, you are….. really unpredictable and argh i dont even know how to describe you. why must all this kind of things happen. fml fml fuck my fucking life. i thought this f/s as a whole wld be more everlasting than i thought it will, and now what. 不三不四. i mean like urghh i mean everyone could be biased to people but…. aiya fuck la….. its been countless times since i’ve cried over this. perhaps you sh'ld’nt have entered the kpop fandom at all. perhaps all this shldn’t have happened. then we’ll still all be circulating at one common topic. and now, its just a wide range of kpop topics and whatever shit. everything is different. who cares if you’re unimportant to me, but you’re, important. JSYK. In my life, there are only a few ppl whom i’ll rlly deem as impt ppl. and you’re one of them. yet you’re doing this to me. why? i’ve asked umpteen times of why already. yet your answers are still the same. because you dont feel like it, etc etc. all that shit, all those are srsly bullshitting. you’re not like this in the past. i dont know what happened during the intervals but argh i rlly hate bringing you into the kpop world. idk, i feel that the kpop world plays a part in leading you to have such behaviors etc. i hate myself. of cos, not everything is derived by you but aiya –_- dont feel like caring any more. fate right. this is fate. i dont know what did i do in my past life that i deserve to be hurt and  in such ways……. fate huh. fate shld just diaf and gtfo fgs.

this is seriously one of the closest bunch of people, in my life right now. i dont know, and seriously do not want to know what’s gonna happen next.